Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I Am Me

Why do I feel like crying?
I want to talk about what interests me.
Why do I feel like I have to hide?
I want to write about what I love.
Why do I feel afraid to be me?
I want to be myself without being judge.
People around me just don’t understand.
People around me just don’t want to listen,
But how can I make them understand?
How can I make them listen?
People look at me like I’m strange.
People around me judge without knowing.
I just want to be me.
I want to express myself without being afraid.
I don’t want to feel condemned,
But I don’t want to be someone I’m not.
So go ahead and judge me.
Think I’m strange if you must.
Don’t listen, don’t comprehend,
I am going to continue being me,
And you can just continue being you.

Broken

God last night I cried to you again, pouring out my soul,
Giving you all that I am.
Right now I am broken.
Where is my miracle?
Why do I have to go through this?
Why me?
I ask these questions often, but I know the answers.
It’s in your plan, your never failing plan.
You are all knowing God. You have all the power.
My miracle will come in time.
I’m going through this
So you will get all the glory you deserve in the end.
It’s happening to me God,
Because you chose it to happen to me.
These are the answers to my questions.
I’m broken and I am hurting inside.
But you are here with me.
You won’t give me anything that I can’t handle.
You chose me God. Do with me what you will,
Use me God… I am broken,
But that won’t stop me from carrying my cross.
It won’t stop me from praising you.
It won’t stop me from seeking after you.
It won’t stop me from wanting to be closer to you God.
I may be broken, and I may be hurting
But that won’t stop me.

Locked Up

They’re trying to keep me locked up,
Locked up away from you my Lord.
It seems that the harder I try,
I just fall even harder.
But it is you, who say
That you’ll catch me when I fall.
It is you, who says
That when I can’t walk anymore,
You will carry me.
It seems hopeless for my family in my eyes,
But I am just looking at the situation,
Through mere human eyes.
You have a plan.
A perfect plan that only I can do.
You have a reason for everything,
I may be locked up physically,
But that is okay.
No matter how hard they try,
I will never be locked up spiritually.
No matter how hard they try,
They can’t keep me away from you.

Mountain

I had to write this for my English class for symbolism... but I still like it





I am like a mountain.
Motionless, mighty, majestic, marvelous.
I stand stern with my head lifted up high,
Refusing to let anyone shake me from my beliefs.
People step on me, but I am not phased.
I am solid, I am firm,
I am one with the earth.
I am like a mountain,
And like a mountain
I am strong.

Don't Tell Me

I am not a big fan of this one cause I kind of forced it out... mainly cause I wanted to write a poem that rhymed




Don’t tell me I am not pretty
Because I know I am
Don’t tell me what I can’t do
Because I know I can

While you may be looking down on me
I will hold my head up high
You can’t bring me down
And do you know why?

Because I am a Christian
And I’m proud of it
Because I am Child of God,
And I love it!!

I'll Always Cling To him

So many different emotions are running inside of me.
Confused, sad, hurt, disappointed, anger, and worry
Those emotions only scratch the surface
Right now the Devil is trying to make me doubt.
The Devil is trying to make me feel alone,
But that is not going to happen.
I laugh at the devil’s failed attempts.
It is true that my family is fighting.
It is true that I am in a lot of pain.
It is true that right now at this moment I feel alone,
But I know that I am not.
Even though my parents fight I know they love me.
I also have great friends, who are there for me,
But most importantly I know God is, and always will be here for me.
Before God I used to think of killing myself at times like these.
Without him it is very possible I would have succeeded,
But then where would I be?
I would be right where the Devil wants me to be.
I would be burning in Hell.
No matter what the Devil may throw at me
I will survive it,
And I will survive it clinging onto God.
No one can pull me away from him.
I will cling to God until the very end,
And I don’t care what I have to go through.
No one, not anything,
Can pull me away from my God.

A Poem with No Name

This is a poem with no name. This is not only a poem, but this is my prayer that I will pray to God until either I die or my family is saved.



God I am on my knees right now
I am hurting and I am crying
My dad has turned back to drugs
My mom is putting me in the middle of the fight
And even though this has happened many times before
I can’t help but feel this way
I tell people on the outside that it doesn’t bother me
I tell them that I am used to it, and that I don’t care
But it is all lies.
Yes I am used to the fighting, but I don’t want to be
A child like me shouldn’t go through this over and over again
I hate seeing my parents fighting
I hate feeling this way
But what I hate the most is knowing…
Knowing that they are on the wrong path from you.
At this moment I cry out to you god.
I pray you help my parents
Please God I don’t want to live like this anymore
I don’t care about all the money we have
I don’t care about my family status in this stupid town
All I care about is their salvation
God just give me the words I need to say to them
Please God use me
Only you can help me with my family
Only you can give me the words I need to say
Please God just give me the words
In your name I pray
Amen

My Secret Place

My secret place is my place of peace.
My secret place is my place of solitude.
My secrete place is my place of sanctuary.
Whether in my room, driving in my car, or at work,
My secret place will always be with you.
My secret place is where I pray.
My secret place is where I worship.
So my secret place is every place
Because you are forever with me.

Looking Back

There’s a big difference between now and then.
Look back at me then and what did you see?
Looking back I was a girl,
Who did not care about going to church or God.
Looking back I was a girl,
Who did not care about right or wrong.
Looking back I was a girl,
Who was a much worse person.
Looking back I was a girl,
Who was on the wrong path from God.
Look at me now and what do you see?
Now I am a girl who loves God with all her heart.
Now I am a girl who does what is right.
Now I am a girl, who is so much better off than before.
Now I am a girl who is following the Path God has set out for me.
You look at me now, but think of that girl I used to be back then.
You are thinking…
“How did she change so much in that short amount of time?”
The answer is simple you see…
The answer is God.
Once you give your life to him
Once you feel his love
You can’t help but change.
You can’t help but make a 180 degree turn.
I gave my life to God.
I have felt his love, and it feels amazing.
I have made that 180 degree turn,
And I don’t plan on turning back.

Never Lose Sight

My family is still broken God,
But I will not lose faith in you.
I feel so alone God,
But I will not doubt you.
People at school laugh at me God,
But I will not let go of you.
No matter where I may go,
No matter what happens,
I will worship you God.
I will honor you; I will give you the glory,
I will give you all the praise
Because you are God, because without you
I am nothing,
Without you I wouldn’t be here.
You are my creator God.
Every breath I breathe you give me.
Every heartbeat I have you give me.
Thank you God for being so great.
Thank you God for being so wonderful.
Thank You God for being God,
No matter what I go through,
No matter what happens,
I will not lose sight of you oh God.
I will never lose sight of you
Because without you
I am nothing.

My Journy

My life has been one great journey.
Following you has been a majestic experience.
It started off rough at first,
And I thought that I would never see the light.
I thought I would be lost forever.
I thought I you have given up on me.
I thought I was all alone,
And I was scared, no I was terrified.
But just when I was about to give up all hope,
My heart filled with a little hope.
I felt your love, your wonderful love.
All of a sudden everything became clear.
Light surrounded me from all sides.
I was no longer in the dark.
I was no longer alone.
My heart wanted to explode with joy.
My heart knows no greater love than yours.
I have never felt safer in my life,
And it is all thanks to your endless love.
It is all thanks to you God.

Please Forgive me

Everyone messes up... we are all born into sin, but it is when we are reborn is when our sins are truly forgiven



I am not perfect Lord
I make mistakes, and I have regrets.
No one is perfect in this world.
We all are unfortunately sinners
That’s why you sacrificed your only son
For the sake of us
To forgive our sins
To save us from the debts of hell
It still amazes me how lucky we are
To have a God like you
Who loves us unconditionally
Who would sacrifice his only son
Just so we can have a chance at heaven
It seems too good to be true
Can such an opportunity be possible?
I am not perfect Lord
No matter how much I want to be.
I will always sin and make mistakes
Because I am just human
I just ask that you
Please forgive me
Because I am truly sorry